Well, I didn't take the job

They didn't have the shift I wnated so they are going to hold my application and call if any 7-3 shifts come available. I won't hold my breath. Meanwhile, my current job asked me to stay an extra week ( "or as long as possible") since one of the other nurses is out with an injury until mid-April. I agreed. Mostly since I have a Dr. appt coming up and David is going back to his on April 12th so this way I'll hang on to my Health insurance a little longer. Once all of our annual Dr. appts. are out of the way then I can leave. My last day is April 13. I hope that david won't require any MRIs or EGDs because I don't want to stay much longer than I have to and if he does then I have to stay for my insurance to pay for these procedures.
I am hoping the Protonix takes care of his GI problems so we can avoid further tests. He also has borderline high BP. Ick. I am not surprised though.

Today Seth and I went to the cemetery since it was so nice outside. We visited my Papaw briefly and then Seth ran around to look at all of the fake flowers that people had placed on other graves. Maybe we'll go back tonight. There is so much room for him to run around, and it's so nice and peaceful. It's very beautiful as well.Of course, We are always respectful. Quite a few of the people I have taken care of in my nursing career are buried there so I visit their graves and say a little prayer.

My computer desk...

Why?

Whay is it that gay guys would make such awesome boyfriends? I don't want to replace my husband or anything but this guy at work has always been so supportive and kind when I am having crappy days. He is always reassuring and sweet. Also funny and smart. I just think that it is such a waste that he is gay. He's not so great in the looks department but, oh well.

I turned in my resignation today. I don't think they were too upset. The other job called my house today while I was at work. I'm going to call them back in the morning...from work of course.

Seth is pushing around his toy fire truck and making car sounds, it's so cute. I just love him!!! VROOM!!VROOM!!

I wrote my letter.

Now I just need the courage to turn it in. I don't know why I get so nervous about resigning, it's not like they are going to fire me or something, you know? I can't think they will be too broken up about my leaving I wasn't the model employee ( chronic tardiness, not attenting inservices, some anxiety) but for the most part I know my stuff. I am dependable, reliable, clean and neat, organized, and always pay attention to detail. I am very knowledgable about the computer system. I like my patients and try to take care of all of their needs, medical or not. I try to be friendly and polite to all my co-workers and to visitors to the facility. I have a good understanding of medical knowledge and how to perform nursing tasks. I also have an excellent memory and lots of energy.

I think that I would hire me.

I think I have a new job!!

My job has been absolutely horrible since they reopened after rebuilding from the hurricane. Every day is chaos!! They are very disorganized and very understaffed and I just don't think it is healthy for my mental health to remain there. So today I decided to apply for a new job at the nursing home down the road from the one I am currently at.As my good luck would have it the staffing nurse at the new place was my unit manager a couple years ago at my current place! Thank goodness I was always on good terms with her! She said that i might have to work a couple 3-11 and a couple 7-3 shift to make up my hours but really thinks that we could work something out because she knows that I am a good nurse. She said that she will call me!!!What a relief. Also I went to my check up with the psychiatrist today and told him about it,he had good things to say about the facility and the staff so I guess it must be alright. He makes weekly visits there to see the psych patients. Anyway...I am glad evrything will work out. From everything that the staffing nurse told me they sound like they are way more organized and properly stffed than my current place of employment.

While Seth naps I am going to write out my letter of resignation.

It's always an adventure.

That should be David and I's relationship motto. So many times, especially in our travels , have we uttered those words. We always try to make the best of unplanned situations. Now Seth and I have constant adventures. I love, love, love spending time with him. Every day is a new adventure, a new experience.
Today we went to the mall and then we went to Dairy Queen and shared a blizzard. It was delicious, it was partially melted by the time we returned home but we enjoyed it nevertheless. Seth had it all over his face and hair, what a glorious mess. He received a nice bath afterwards. Then we blew bubbles on the patio for a bit, until he became horribly cranky. Now he is napping.
I have been thinking about how far apart I should space my children and I think I have settled on 3-4 years apart. I am having so much fun with Seth right now I am just not ready to bring another baby into the world yet and disrupt things. But I do know that I want him to have a sibling, I am just not quite ready. Besides we would need to get a bigger house in order to accomodate another child.
Thank goodness that my sister is due in June. Seth WILL have a playmate. Fonda and I already have it planned out. We are going to take our kids out to the park together and the playground. And they will be the best of friends. Just like Fonda and me.
Seth did see my cousin and her 5 kids last Saturday and apparently had a grand time playing with them. unfortunately I was at work that day but I was glad that he got along with them so well. I am sorry i missed it.

I think that if tomorrow isn't any better at my work I am going to apply at a different facility on Wed. I have already asked mom if she could watch Seth for a few while I go up there. If i decide to ( I think I have decided though). I am fed up with working at such a disorganized and understaffed facility. It's almost chaotic every day!!! I really ,truly dislike it there and I really think that it would be in my best interest to leave. I need a facility that has a competent and able administrative team. I am thinking optomistically that I will find what I am looking for.

not-so-happy st patty's day

david's home late again. Every single day this week. i know I shouldn't complain because he is getting paid good money this week so it's not like he isn't being compensated for all of these extra hours but...I guess I just feel selffish and lonely. I would like to see him sometimes, you know? I feel a little sad for myself right now. Sad and lonely.

Happy St. Patty's day!

I took a sick day yesterday since my mom was ill. Fonda and I went to the mall and did some shopping. I got Seth some summer clothes, some new shoes for me and David and new onesies and a matching hat, and some booties for my neice or nephew arriving in June!
I could have gone nuts buying little baby stuff for her but I knew I had to restrain myself.
Today we went to mamaw's house to visit. My cousin is coming today to stay with her for a couple days and I was hoping to see her and her 5 ( 5!!!!!) kids but they won't be arriving until later this evening.

In other news , David's 33rd birthday is coming up on April 8 and I don't know what to get him. Star Trek stuff? Gift certificate for the guitar store? a massage? Who knows ...

Beach day

We stopped by the beach today and seth played in the sand, chased some sea gulls and picked up several rocks and shells. He tried to walk in to the water and at one point tried to steal some poor little girls sand toys, but all in all he got good and dirty and had a fun time. When it comes time to swim at the beach we will have to go to a different location since the local beach is rather muddy and the water is brackish and brown,yuck! We will have to take a drive to Englewood where they have beautiful blue water and lovely white sand.
We left when he started throwing sand. It was a lovely breezy day so you can imagine that that sand was going everywhere.
Now he is sleeping soundly ( like a baby) and I think that I will go read a book.

True tales of humor from the nursing home

Yesterday I asked one of my patients if he was experiencing any pain from his recent abdominal surgery. Initially he replied "no" but then added, " Actually I shouldn't say that, I guess I should probably take one of those pills the Dr. prescribed for me.. those Extra Strength Tylenol with cocaine."
I laughed and replied " coming right up!" I knew what he meant of course. When I repeated this story to one of the other nurses his Dr. happened to overhear me. He said " So Jennifer, That's how you keep your patients coming back."

I need to win the lottery...

So that I can quit my job. I feel that the nurses at my workplace ( and most places) are very underappreciated. Even by my nurse managers. My supervisors are a bunch of airheads that are worthless. I need a new job, with a boss that has a clue!
I love my patients, I love my CNAs. I don't love whiney family members that are never happy. I don't love all of my superiors that graduated from nursing school in the 60s. I don't love being overworked and underpaid. I don't love having to do my superiors work because they were too busy gossiping to do it themself. I don't love not being able to take breaks and lunches half the time.
At least Seth and David appreciate me.

Actually I am thinking about getting a job at a Dr. office. after I get my new car of course. I think it's time for a change

Sickday!

Last night I was feeling very lightheaded and nauseated. Not to mention that I was feeling cold...then hot...then cold, you get the picture. So I called out sick today...told them I had a flu. My mom said she would come over early today anyway and get Seth up so that I could sleep late. WELL..I certainly wouldn't argue with THAT! But as it turns out I felt better by the time I got up at 9:15 so good for me! bad for my work!
My mom really missed Seth during the weekends. I really think that he is one of her top 3 favorite things in life, actually I wouldn't be surprised if he was at the top of the list. In June when my sis's baby comes he might have some competition though!

Today was a lovely day, we played outside until I noticed that Seth's little face was turning pink ( i'm a BAD mommy!) But he was having so much fun spinning those rings and rolling them everywhere and throwing around all of the sand in the sand box. I swear this kid moves so fast it is hard to keep up with him, he runs everywhere. Gone are the walking days. Now he is taking a nap and I am itching to bake something. But i did just make a strawberry glazed cheesecake last night so I have to eat that before I make something else.

David installed new carpet in the bedroom on Saturday, it looks lovely and is so soft. Next he is going to tile my kitchen counters , I'm a lucky gal.

When we get our tax refund we are thinking about leasing a PT cruiser, how fun would that be?! I am looking forward to it. If anyone out there in blog land has had any experiences with a PT cruiser let me know what you thought. Thanks!

Stolen from everyone else's blogs...

9 lasts:
last cigarette: Around April 2004
last beverage: a glass of milk
last kiss: Today
last movie seen: The Butterfly Effect
last phone call: David
last cd played: Dave Matthews Band ( I don't know the title)
last bubble bath: Quite a few months ago
last time you cried: At work a few weeks ago...a coworker got very nasty with me
8 have you evers:
have you ever dated one of your best friends: My boyfriends were always my best friends
have you ever skinny dipped: Yes
have you ever kissed somebody and regretted it: Yes, lots
have you ever fallen in love: yes,a few times
have you ever lost someone you loved: Yes.
have you ever been depressed: Yes, severely
have you ever been drunk and thrown up: Yes, too many times!!!!
7 states you've been to:
1. Florida
2. California
3. Louisiana
4. Illinois
5. Minnesota
6. Rhode Island
7. North Carolina
6 things you've done today:
1. went to work
2. washed dishes
3. read to Seth
4. took a shower
5. bathed Seth
6. hugged David
5 favorite things in no order:
1. Seth
2. David
3. hugs
4. laughter
5. music
4 people you can tell [almost] anything to:
1. David
2. My sister
3. My mom
4. Tammy
3 wishes:
1. Live a happy and healthy life
2. Seth to live a happy and healthy life
3. financial security
2 things you want to do before you die:
1. Travel to Europe
2. Have a second child
1 thing you regret:
1.My first couple boyfriends...they were losers. I could have done way better.

What a lovely day!

Seth and I went to the park by the harbor today. We wandered throught he nature trail hoping to see some cranes or pelicans without any luck. We walked in the wet sand and played in the shallow water a bit. We did see a big boat and lots of fishermen ( but no fish). I think Seth had fun exploring and I had fun enjoying the weather. Next time ,I think that we will be to the beach complex and play there. There is always sea gulls around there so we could see some birds at least.
Today David and I are going to the accountant to do our taxes. Yesterday the accountant called David to give him a ballpark figure about what our refund might be. Apparently we may be looking at $4,000!!!!!!! Yippeeeee We will be able to afford a new car for me!!!!!!I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. It won't be long now( I hope) and I can get in the car to go for a drive and not have to wonder if it will make it there or not. Or have to start the car with a screwdriver!
I guess having a child and a house paid off. ( I know how awful that sounds but I haven't ever gotten any significant amount back from my refund, I usually owe) Happy days are here again! Okay so they weren't that bad to begin with...now they're just better.

This is funny...

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Cool! I wish!

Why?

As everyone knows I need a new car. david and I have decided to wait until our taxes are done on Mon to see how much we get back for our refund. In the meantime, though, My mom's husband saw a nice Jeep that he wanted me to look at. I wasn't able to that particular evening and also when i found out it was a 2004 I figured I wouldn't be able to afford it anyway. So he takes my mom to see it yesterday evening and they bought it. Immediately afterward, my mom calls me to tell how beautiful it is and how it was $16,000 and blah, blah, blah. First of all they weren't even looking for a new car until they were aware that i needed one and then for her to call me right away to tell me about it? WTF? Why did she do that? And why do I feel like such a loser?
She said " I guess that you probably weren't the best person to call first" I even told her that I wondered why she called to tell me first and I felt she was trying to rub it in my face that I cannot afford a car like that and meanwhile I have to start my car with a screwdriver! Maybe there is something wrong with me but I have had far too many people in my life that enjoy making me feel lousy by bragging that they have better car than me or better things, etc. I have never been rich but I thought I did well for myself. I am not trying to impress anyone, so why do people try to making me feel so crappy about what I do have?

I have worked very hard all of my life and it sickens me that I see so many people who don't have to do crap and have everything handed to them without any effort. I guess that i just wonder when I am going to get a break!

Maybe I deserve to suffer for feeling the way I do. Blech. My mom said " Jennie ,I think this is your year"
I thought all of my years have been special. I have had wonderful experiences and a great husband and son. I thought I was doing well.

Put it this way. If I had a friend that I knew needed a new car desperately but couldn't quite afford one and I decided one day just to go out and buy exactly the kind of car that she needs and can't afford. I sure wouldn't call her right away and tell her all about it.
Maybe there isn't anything wrong with me...maybe it's my mom.


I still feel like a loser. Why?

My son, He who poops on the floor

Not a minute after I removed Seth from his bath water than he squatted down and pooped on the floor of the bathroom. A lovely little pile in the middle of the floor. Nice. So now, not only do I have to clean up after the cats but now the babe. At least it wasn't a floater for me to fish out of the bathtub.
I think little kids are the only humans that can manage to look cute while they are pooping.

Enough about pooping. 10 minutes until American Idol! I told myself I would not become addicted to this stupid show. I never watched any other season of it ,why now? I just wanted to watch the horrible auditions at the beginning but then I was going to stop watching. Yeah right! It sucked me in!!!!! It's not my fault!! Now it's my stupid addiction. I am very disappointed in myself. Oh well.

Seth and mommy home alone

David has band practice tonight so he won't be home until 8 or9. So Seth and I got Carrabba's curb-side take out for supper. Yum! And I will get watch "American Idol" uninterrupted. Of course I miss David terribly but it's nice to have an evening alone, you know?