he hates me

I feel as if I would be happier without him. Especially since he doesn't like me. When I try to hug him or say I love you he seems irritated so I'm not going to say it anymore. No more" Bye,I love yous" I'm just too tired for sex all the time. Shoot, I am to tired to walk around the block! personally I don't understand who would want to have sex with my disgusting body anyway, whatever. He complains that I don't love him but I am just too worn out to work at a marriage. Between the boy and work and cleaning and worrying about money to pay bills, I barely even care to eat. Sometimes eating seems like too much hassle, I'd rather drink a V8 and be on my way. Too much to do and not enough energy to do it. A shower seems like a lot of work at this point. But it has to be done. i don't feel much better.

Why do I feel so sad?

I think my marriage is in trouble and it makes me wonder what I was thinking in the first place when I got married. When he gets home he reads, or plays his video game or watches TV. He rarely bothers to interact with Seth except when he first gets home or on occasions that I am in the shower or decide to go to the store alone ( Even when THAT happens ,he suggests " why don't you take the boy?") I feel as if he wants no part of family life. I thought he was ready for this as I was. He NEVER feeds, bathes, or rocks the baby. He rarely plays with him or even changes him. It makes me so sad. I don't mind taking take of the baby alone but if I were to do that I would prefer not to work full time as well, you know? I also clean the house, do the laundry, make sure all the bills are paid. I feel like I do EVERYTHING around here, and he just wants to relax. I definitely don't want to have sex with hyim because at this point I feel NO respect for him so I certainly don't feel attracted to him, and I also feel like my body is gross anyway, but thats a whole different story. I should have held out for a guy that was a bit more together. David just won't grow up. What to do?