So bad i was crying at work so I called my sis to pick me up and she brought me a cold towel and Vicodin for my poor aching head. She is the best. I only took half the Vicodin and I feel like a new (somewhat tired) woman. As much as i hate FL I know that I could never move away from my family. Family is very important in my life and I depend on them for emotional support and car rides home from a shitty day at work. I have my mom, sis, bro, dad, grandma, stepdad, and mother and father in law all in the same town. How could I ever move away and deprive Seth of all of this love!!
We may not be rich but the love we have for each other is absolutely priceless and far more important, I think. Going to my grandma's tomorrow and we always have such a nice time at her house. I consider myself very lucky.
We got a new cat...she is 1 year old and calico colored.Very loving
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
Wednesday
Today I was pestered by not one but two different people peddling their Jehovah's witness nonsense. Ick, what a waste of my time. The first lady came to my door looking for my mom! Apparantly one day while my mom was babysitting they came by and gave her some stuff and talked to her briefly . She gave the papers to david as a joke but they came back looking for her to discuss the mag that they left before. I HAD to call her and thank her profusely. She got a good laugh out of it " You didn't tell them what days I would be here, did you?"
Then after Seth fell asleep I decided to make some bread, while I was mixing the dough I received a phone call," Do you ever wonder about all of the wickedness in the world? Blah, blah blah..."
" I am very content with my life and God has blessed me with a wonderful family, a good job, food to eat, " I reply.
" But do you ever wonder about all of the death and despair, all the wickedness and evil, blah...blah" She continues going on about the future and evil in the world.
I told her that I am very happy with life RIGHT NOW. I don't have alot of death or despair or wickedness in my life. God has been good to me and I feel very blessed.
Of course she was dead set on discussing death and despair so I cut her off.
"Why are you trying to depress me lady? Do you just call people up and try to make them feel bad or guitly about everything? I have to go because i am in the middle of something and I hope that you have a a better day tomorrow and think about happy things"
GEEZ!
Why would I ever want to be part of such a depressing religion? I didn't know today was my day to worry about the future of the world! I looked at the cover of the magazine that I received earlier today and it says" What will the future bring?"
These people need to live a little. Now I know why they don't celebrate holidays. They just might forget about the evils of the world for a moment and be happy!
I think I will check my bread dough progress before the boy awakens. It should be fully risen by now.
Is it wrong to want to have a HAPPY Day? I don't live in a fantasy world, heck I have a ton of bills due and I am broke so , no I do not live in a perfect world. But I do try to keep my spirits up and enjoy what i do have. i don't think that's wrong.
Then after Seth fell asleep I decided to make some bread, while I was mixing the dough I received a phone call," Do you ever wonder about all of the wickedness in the world? Blah, blah blah..."
" I am very content with my life and God has blessed me with a wonderful family, a good job, food to eat, " I reply.
" But do you ever wonder about all of the death and despair, all the wickedness and evil, blah...blah" She continues going on about the future and evil in the world.
I told her that I am very happy with life RIGHT NOW. I don't have alot of death or despair or wickedness in my life. God has been good to me and I feel very blessed.
Of course she was dead set on discussing death and despair so I cut her off.
"Why are you trying to depress me lady? Do you just call people up and try to make them feel bad or guitly about everything? I have to go because i am in the middle of something and I hope that you have a a better day tomorrow and think about happy things"
GEEZ!
Why would I ever want to be part of such a depressing religion? I didn't know today was my day to worry about the future of the world! I looked at the cover of the magazine that I received earlier today and it says" What will the future bring?"
These people need to live a little. Now I know why they don't celebrate holidays. They just might forget about the evils of the world for a moment and be happy!
I think I will check my bread dough progress before the boy awakens. It should be fully risen by now.
Is it wrong to want to have a HAPPY Day? I don't live in a fantasy world, heck I have a ton of bills due and I am broke so , no I do not live in a perfect world. But I do try to keep my spirits up and enjoy what i do have. i don't think that's wrong.
Friday, January 06, 2006
I really don't update this thing too much...
Happy frigging new year. It's another year not too unlike the last.
Seth is walking now and talking. Smart boy ,he is. And very adorable. He was the center of attention on Christmas. He would clap his hansds in the middle of dinner and say "Yay!" And everyone at the table would stop eating to clap and say "Yay!" back Very cute. I swear I really believe that alot of love is all you really need in life.
I don't get much time to update this I think because I do so much charting at work that when i get home the last thing I want to do is type anything. My poor, poor fingers are simply too stiff. Did I mention i am beginning to despise my job? i love the patinets but dislike my bosses, it always seems that the higher up in ranks you go you get to do less and get paid more. Why? I find that working 7-3 I get alot of crap handed down to me from my bosses and I have enough to do already! I wish i could spend more time with interacting with my patients and less with paperwok and charting. But that's simply not goingt o happen anytime soon. They are short staffed and keep asking me to work extra. Of course i say no. No amount of money could replace the satisfaction that I feel from spending time with my family.
David and I are still happyish I guess. We love each other but I simply have NO SEX DRIVE! I do find him attractive but I feel as if I just don't want to be bothered with sex. Too much effort, I guess. I get all sweaty and short of breath and then I have to shower and remake the bed and eat ( because i am always hungry afterward) I guess i should just do it, but he can tell when I'm not " into" it. Anyway i keep thinking that the Lexapro will help things and I think that it has but not the sex thing. I do notice that I don't have anxiety attacks like before and I feel that I can handle stressful situations better. I will think positive.
Should he joint the military? I think it would be best if he joined full time. If he joined reserves he would work at the Celtic Ray upon his return and i certainly don't want him doing that. A 32 year old man doesn't need to be working part time as a cook at a pub. I cannot 9 and will not) do extra shifts to pay the bills while he sleeps in and plays video games all day waiting to go to the pub in the eve. i would like him to join full time so he can learn new things, make a living and possibly we could move away from this horrid ,humid and hot town.
I am hungry so i think that I will go eat. Buh bye!
Seth is walking now and talking. Smart boy ,he is. And very adorable. He was the center of attention on Christmas. He would clap his hansds in the middle of dinner and say "Yay!" And everyone at the table would stop eating to clap and say "Yay!" back Very cute. I swear I really believe that alot of love is all you really need in life.
I don't get much time to update this I think because I do so much charting at work that when i get home the last thing I want to do is type anything. My poor, poor fingers are simply too stiff. Did I mention i am beginning to despise my job? i love the patinets but dislike my bosses, it always seems that the higher up in ranks you go you get to do less and get paid more. Why? I find that working 7-3 I get alot of crap handed down to me from my bosses and I have enough to do already! I wish i could spend more time with interacting with my patients and less with paperwok and charting. But that's simply not goingt o happen anytime soon. They are short staffed and keep asking me to work extra. Of course i say no. No amount of money could replace the satisfaction that I feel from spending time with my family.
David and I are still happyish I guess. We love each other but I simply have NO SEX DRIVE! I do find him attractive but I feel as if I just don't want to be bothered with sex. Too much effort, I guess. I get all sweaty and short of breath and then I have to shower and remake the bed and eat ( because i am always hungry afterward) I guess i should just do it, but he can tell when I'm not " into" it. Anyway i keep thinking that the Lexapro will help things and I think that it has but not the sex thing. I do notice that I don't have anxiety attacks like before and I feel that I can handle stressful situations better. I will think positive.
Should he joint the military? I think it would be best if he joined full time. If he joined reserves he would work at the Celtic Ray upon his return and i certainly don't want him doing that. A 32 year old man doesn't need to be working part time as a cook at a pub. I cannot 9 and will not) do extra shifts to pay the bills while he sleeps in and plays video games all day waiting to go to the pub in the eve. i would like him to join full time so he can learn new things, make a living and possibly we could move away from this horrid ,humid and hot town.
I am hungry so i think that I will go eat. Buh bye!
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