And baby makes 4!

Last Wed. I started feeling slightly queasy. I attributed it to the fried food I had for lunch. It was only slight! Then I had it Thurs and Fri. also. Friday I only had cereal for lunch so I was a little suspicious because I have been eating the same cereal all of my life and I never get nauseated...no matter what! And I deal with some pretty gross stuff at work at times...anyways, I was at the grocery store and thought I would get a pregnancy test, just to prove to myself that it was all in my head. Imagine my surprise when a plus sign appeared on my store brand test! So of course I treid the other in the box and the same thing happened! I immediately called my friend Tammy since I was in shock. I was shaking from excitement! Then I called David...he said" Already! that was fast!" and proceded to tell all of his friends. He was amazed that he felt so thrilled actually. My entire family is happy and I feel great!
I am estimating that I am just over 4 weeks pregnant which would make me due in early March. I must have "o"d around the time David and I were in Orlando for my birthday! (I got a baby for my birthday, hee hee)
So far I have just a tiny bit of early-mid afternoon sickness. NO sore boobs like with Seth and NO other symptoms at all. Okay so maybe I'm a bit tired.

So far so good! My sis is hoping it's a girl so her and Amber can be friends. This will be fun...

various photos of my life

Seth, me and the new kitty ( they won't leave me alone!
Amber Paige, my new neice born June1st. I love her!



Seth in the bath

Grrrrrr!

David has been off for most of the week. I STILL had my mom come over and watch Seth because I thought that he could do some stuff around the house. Well, he didn't. Yesterday he reqested that I write up a list of things to do and he would work on them today. Well, he ended up going into work around 11 and them he finished half of the job and went to band practice. Then called me to tell me that he will probably get a cab home since he was planning on drinking. So I said. " Great, you went to work late, did half a job then you're going to get drunk" I was upset that he accomplished NOTHING this week for being off. Then I tell him that I think he's been drinking too much lately. He blames me for his drinking...because he hates his life, he's unloved, etc. I was just pissed because if I am going to support someone when they aren't bringing home money, well then they better do something worthwhile. NOT play on the computer or play video games while my mom watches the boy. Oddly enough, I am not upset. Just unhappy.

Now that Seth has a new cousin...

We have decided to have another child. Not because of Amber , we actually decided the week before she was born, so now we are "not preventing" another baby. So whatever happens, happens. I am hoping for another boy since we have all boy stuff, that would save us a bit of money.
David's best friend's girlfriend is newly pregnant so now the pressure is on for me to be as well so our babies will be born close together. I guess that would be neat having another person pregnant at the same time as me. Andrea is a nice girl, even though she's 9 years younger than me. We just never talked much because we had nothing in common. I think that would be very cool. And the daddys-to be could have something to talk about as well. Of course Seth is my #1. He's so wonderful. I think he will be a great big brother. Whenever I get preg, of course. It did take 6 months with Seth and we were trying for that!

She's heeeeere!

Amber Paige was born at 1955(9:55PM) on June 1, 2006 weighing 5 lbs 12 oz. 18 inches long. She is a tiny little thing but adorable as anything. I love her. My sister is doing well, a little achy but who isn't after giving birth?
Seth and I am going to her house tomorrow afternoon after they are discharged from the hospital.
Today i was able to go to see them at the hospital. I got to hold little Amber. She has the cutest feet ever!!I am so proud.

June 1st is a lovely day to be born...

My sis called me to tell me that she is going in to be induced tomorrow at 1100! I am sooo excited! In 24 hours, I will be an aunt! I can't tell anyone( except David) because it is a secret but I am absolutely thrilled.
My birthday is in 1 week, I will be 29 years old! Today i made the reservations for the hotel. We will be within walking distance of Universal Studios. We haven't spent a night away withou Seth since our anniversary in September. It's about time. Note to self: don't drink so much that I pass out without any nookie.
Today Seth and I went to the park in Punta Gorda again. Seth walked in the water, eventually sitting in it in his sunsuit! Next time I will just put his swim suit on and let him wade in the water. It was rather hot but pleasant there by the water. The breeze off the harbor really lowers the extremely hot temperature and makes for a lovely day.
David was working out in PGI so I dropped his lunch off on the way. That's all I 've seen of him today since he's at band practice.
We have a new kitty that we've decided to name Squibb. Squibb is a PIA during the night and likes to sleep on my head. In the several times I removed her from that location and placed her on the floor she scratched the heck outout of my hand. Ick!
I showed Seth my boo-boo and he kissed it and said "hurts?" .

I love that little boy.

My mom and Seth.

A few years back my mother was diagnosed with breast cancer with metastasis to the lymph nodes. She went through chemotherapy and radiation, you know, the works. As a result she ended up with radiation poisoning which prevented her hair from completely growing back among some other things. Therefore, she always wears a baseball cap to cover her very thin head of hair.
She babysits him on the days I work so she has had a hand in teaching him many words, and for that I am most fortunate. Apparently he is fascinated with her hat and always asks " Whats that?" Of course she tells him" hat". Well now he seems to think that anything on top of your head is a hat. I try to tell him " head" or "hair" but he just says " hat". To him he points at my hair and says " hat". Sometimes he will place one of his rings on top of his head and announce " hat". He's so strange...

In any case, I will take this moment to record for posterity that...I LOVE MY MOM!!!

I know she won't read this but, I will tell her tomorrow. Happy Mother's Day ,Mom! You are the best. I couldn't have chosen a better mom if I tried. I'm glad to have her, and hope to have her in my ( and Seth's) life for many more years.....

My 50 bucks was found!!

I received a call from Toni at work telling me that someone turned it in. How lucky am I that I work at such a honest place. I am very grateful.

I lost 50 bucks

David had just given it to me and I went to my work with the boy to turn in some paperwork. Well Once I got in the door I realized that it was gone. I am so mad at myself right now.I have checked everywhere. Grrrr....

The wonders of Lexapro

Aside from this crappy cold I have had lately I have been feeling really good. Physically and mentally. I just am not sure if I have improved those areas of my life that were bugging me or is it because I upped my dosage of my antidepressant medication. Even my coworker commented to me that I have changed. He stated " You used to be so angry" And I wholeheartedly agree. I was more than happy to participate in any whine-fest anywhere, anytime. Now I would prefer not to. Whine-fests bring me down and I don't want to hear it. I don't feel as grumpy toward my husband either. Actually I feel more loving toward him than I have in a while. Is it the Lexapro? I don't know ,but I certainly can't complain.
I have a cold right now that is a pain in my butt. I think that the worst is over ,but I feel so run down and blah. Everytime I try to lie down for a while Seth grabs the blanket off of me and says, "Come!" I can't stay in one place for too long with him around. He's just as cute as can be!
My sister's baby shower was Sunday and she made out pretty well. I can't believe that in a little less than a month that my little sis will have a baby! I am so excited! I cannot wait to hold the little baby in my arms. They don't know the gender so I am hoping for a boy but I have a feeling that it's a girl. I also am hoping that it is born on June 8. The due date is June 6 but the 8th is my birthday and also Jason's (her husband) birthday. He is exactly one year younger than me. Anyway i think that would be so cool.

My myspace site....

David sorta discovered Myspace and started a profile. I decided to as well. It's kinda neat. I'm still working on personalizing it but I have a couple pics and some info there. I'm not sure if I wasnt to get the blog started...How am I going to keep up two blogs!!! Anyway if anyone reads this check it out and add me to your friends if you have a site, too.




Check me out!

A lovely day at the park

Seth and I went to the park in Punta Gorda today and the weather was just lovely! We played on the swings a little and wandered throught the nature trail looking for birds. All we found were fiddler crabs though and some little needlenose fish swimming in the pond. Seth really liked watching the fish swim! Alot of people had taked their boats out into the harbor today so Seth got to see alot of boats out. He really liked that, especially the sail boats. He kept pointing and saying "oat" Very cute. We had alot of fun. David was home today but wasn't feeling well so he stayed home. Oh well...his loss, we had a good time.

David is at band practice now and Seth is bouncing his orange ball in the hallway. "What's that?" I ask. Seth responds, "ball!" then he drops it and says " drop" . Heck, I didn't even know he could say drop! He says so many things that I stopped keeping track, there is just too many to write them all down. What a smart boy.

my sweet little boy...

My new car!!! and a pic of a baby mockingbird

At least he sleeps well...

Once he falls asleep that is. When I say that seth hates sleep it's only the initial falling asleep part. Once he passes out he sleeps like a rock and for that I am most fortunate. But how do I get him to fall asleep better? Omit naps? Wear him out more ( without wearing me out)? i don't know what to do. Will he outgrow this phase? I know as a kid i never liked going to bed, could it be a hereditary trait?

sex, water and air conditioning.

this week has been really good. I have decided not to take the new job. I have decided to stay in the position that I am currently at with out any changes. I would miss everyone too much. I have made too many friends here. I just can't leave. Besides it's getting better. I also upped my dose of Lexapro so maybe that is what is making it all so tolerable. ???
David and I actually had sex thursday after long last. It wasn't as superb as it could have been. Seth was crying and crying like he does every night. He absolutely hates sleep. Of course, I knew that Seth was okay and safe in his crib but the crying and crying....for no reason! GRRR!!!! Will I ever have sex again?!

Today was a hot one. Seth was splashing in the bird bath so we filled up his kiddie pool for him. He liked it okay, he kept getting in the pool and then out of the pool then in the pool and out. I really just don't think he likes to be in one place for too long. I can't believe the energy this kid has. It's amazing.

The A/C was leaking in the garage. Fortunately we only had it installed 11 months ago so the A/C man came out and fixed it at no charge to us. Lucky us. It would have been a $70 service charge.

This morning we took my mom to the fabric store so she could get materials to make my sister's baby a blanket. Then she took us to lunch. Seth didn't eat very much but he behaved really well. I can't believe how fast he is growing!
Everyday he says something new, I was writing it all down but he is saying so much at such a rapid rate I can't keep up anymore! He's so great.

I love my husband and son. I am a lucky girl.

My boy is very cute...

My boy is strange...

blueberry pie, playground, massage and new job?

My last day of work was supposed to be yesterday. Of course, they asked me to stay a little longer. And I agreed. WTH? I don't have another job yet ,anyway. I have to think about paying the bills. They offered me the restorative nurse position. And I accepted. Whever they have someone to fill my current position I will start. I will be working Monday through Friday, similar hours as to my current hours. They will send be to a different facility in Clearwater for a day of training and I will also get a dollar an hour raise. I will have 3 CNAs working under me. I will be in charge of seating arrangements in the dining room, supervising breakfast and lunch in the dining room, weighing all of the residents on a monthly basis and charting the results. I will also be in charge of bed alarms and B&B retraining monitoring. Actually from what i see the 3 CNAs do most of the work. We'll see if i actually get the job or if they are just stringing me along and I am merely a fool for staying.
I made a bluberry pie for David two days ago and he hasn't even eaten any. Bleh. I can always make another. Making pies are soo easy! Too easy actually. I think that next i will try making something more challenging. Maybe a loaf of bread, last time was pretty fun. Fresh bread is so delicious.

I had scheduled a massage for david yesterday but he couldn't make it. He was too far away to make it in time and besides his stomach is still bothering him. I went in his place. Becky and I just talked for over an hour before the massage even started, David was getting worried about me since i was gone so long. It was a lovely massage, I feel so relaxed today.

On wednesday seth and I went to the park and wandered around. He liked watching the other kids on the playground and walking in the murky water ( with his water shoes on, of course). It was a beautiful day and we had fun. Today I think that we will go to the playground near us and see what fun we can find. It's a beautiful day and I love any excuse to drive my new car! hee hee!

Blue blue blue

Is how i feel today. Not sure why, just am. Maybe because I am leaving my job of 5 years and all of the friends that I have made over the years. Last time I left it was understood to be only a temporary situation. Now it's a permanent situation.
Maybe because Tammy was being cranky and mean to me at work today.
Maybe because lately, David has been cranky every day. ( He's that way every year around his birthday, bleh)Evry day he's talking about how every one hates him and how Walter gets to have all kinds of fun and take vacations and he doesn't get to do anything, wah, wah ,wah!!!!
Maybe because I am leaving my job and do not have a new one yet....And a have a new car payment to deal with. I'm telling you i wish I had someone to make desicions for me because all I ever do is make stupid ones.
I wish David was here to give me a hug. Seth is here but it's just not the same as David's strong arms around me to make me feel like it will all be alright.

I will soon be 29. I feel so old. Did you know that Third Eye Blind's first album came out in 1997? Almost 10 years ago. I played the heck out of that CD when it came out. I feel like it was only yesterday. So much has happened in that time. And yet i feel like it has been so little also.